mental 1.0

tengahari tadi, aku disapa seorang rakan bertanyakan tentang sesuatu. aku jadi terdiam dan terkenang. sumpah aku taktahu nak kata apa. tapi aku jawab juga dengan buah fikiran. takut tersalah cakap. macam mana soalan macam tu boleh keluar dari dia? ada tulis kat muka aku ke?

aku mula nak buat post ini selepas situasi di atas berlaku. okey la. weekend ni mungkin ramai tengok aku mental, stres, moody, bersuara tinggi, jarang senyum, marah orang dan macam² lagi. berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul. ya, aku agak bermasalah baru² ini.

berfikir dan termenung

haish, apa yang diharapkan dari tahun lepas tak kesampaian. ada hikmah dan pengajaran buat aku. tak semestinya aku boleh 'collect' macam aku main dengan team bangsar. senang² je nak 'collect' hadiah. kena banyak belajar erti rendah diri dan kerjasama. tapi memang nampaknya takda rezeki. segala penat yang dicari tidak berbaloi untuk rakan lain dan adik². meski itu, aku dapat belajar satu. orang hebat permainannya pun hebat, bukan mengejar menang tetapi mencari kepuasan. kata aku, aku puas dapat main cantik. cuma penyudah je yang tiada. harap adik² boleh sambung semangat ini. teruskan dengan aksi 'fairplay' dan keras.

*lelaki bersukan tak lembik.

to ANACONDA 11

we shared too much ain't?

damage has been done,
they are no turning away.
keep those spirit and strength by training your juniors then
make them uphold our dream with theirs
let them win what we couldn't
then, you are going to smile when they get what they dream of
with some sort of satisfaction and pride
for the juniors that train by your own self
thus, contine share with each other.
never let our connection and passion break.

to Cikgu Shahnun :
I personally thank you for all the support given to them. life is all about experience. losing does not mean that we are failing, give up is. hence, act accordingly to the mother nature. hero starts from being a zero at first, doesn't he? for all this time, you have done a great job, sir. they may not be a national hockey player, but they will know the sense of gaining something with their own, bare hands. thank you, sir. :)

KARiSMA 2010

kontinjen INTEC terdiri daripada staf² dan para pelajar yang aku tak konfem berapa jumlahnya. perkara pertama aku belajar, Kolej Cemara tak best langsung. memang la dekat dengan macam² dan aku memang fokuskan dekat karaoke jamban Ole - Ole tu tapi aku rase memang serba tak kena duduk kat situ. hostel tak best lah senang cerita. seperti post sebelumnye, aku terlibat dalam 2 event; futsal dan hoki.
FUTSAL
Intec 3 - UiTM Kedah 0
Intec 1 - UiTM Puncak Alam 4
Intec 2 - UiTM Kelantan 3
HOKI
Intec 1 - UiTM Terengganu 0
Intec 0 - UiTM Shah Alam 3
Intec 0 - UiTM Penang 2
both game kalah di quater final. aku target both boleh pergi semi final sebenarnye tapi aku sendiri sedar yang ade clash antara game tu yang menyebabkan aku tak dapat main. contoh terbaik adalah bila futsal team lawan puncak alam tu. bukan first team ade tu. aku rase tu yang kena bantai sampai 4-1. kalau Uchai dengan aku main, memang harapan la nak gol banyak² macam tu wey badigol. at least aku dapat elaun RM90 sahaja + 1 set track suit. balik la aku selepas 1 hari di bilik Ajay training main poker kat FB tu. thanks Pisto tumpangkan aku balik.
insyaAllah next year, aku nak fokus kat futsal je. even hoki memang hidup mati aku, aku rase takde player yang best macam this year's team. setakat SAF tu boleh la kot aku main. depends on junior next year lah. doa je ade junior bagus² next year. amin~
baju bersaiz M tu memang untuk kau la budak tengah exam. sayang sangat M tu kan. amek amek. :)

*

last match for STAROBA hockey

zahhar & abu - youngest player 2010

thanks STAROBA hockey.

i had develop myself since with you guys.

i had a nice journey of playing hockey in this adult stage.

if i had chance to say a word during our 'satay' session just now, i would say

"thanks for all the scolding and cursing words on the field. it changes my style of play slowly."

fuh, time to catch up study la.

toodle old boys!

*maybe the last time to play with Zahhar. :(

messy mind

messy, old wire

if i had to choose between futsal and hockey,

i'll choose hockey.

if i had to choose between hockey and study,

i'll choose hockey.

so what to do next?

i'm going to focus on the hockey training,

without letting my final exam's result down.

and i'm not going to play futsal for the college team.

so FULLSTOP!

*its like the old days. STUDY comes LAST. :)

OBW 2010

memang benda pertama aku nak buat lepas sekolah; menghadiri 'old boys weekend, OBW'. ini bukan pertama kali aku menjengah semula ke sekolah dengan title old boys tapi majlis ini mengumpulkan baka² lama & tua tapi masih aktif bertenaga sang murid² STAR.

its our brotherhood without sisterhood

misi 1 : hadiah futsal
aku nak tuntut hadiah futsal yang aku menang dulu. malas nak menaip, aku link jela. CLICK.
misi 2 : mewakili STAROBA hockey melawan anak didik sendiri
dulu, aku main hoki untuk sekolah, tiap kali lawan dengan STAROBA, kami tak pernah menang. paling hebat pun bila aku fivers, seri 1-1. tapi anak didik aku berjaya mengalahkan STAROBA 2-1. aku kalah tapi aku bangga. mereka dah membesar sebagai seorang hockey player. tradisinya, budak² hoki pandai² belaka. harap mereka begitu jua. ini bermakna program yang aku & zahhar atur sewaktu kami senior tidak sia²; pendedahan awal hoki kepada junior². matlamat aku ; walaupun impian aku nak beraksi di hoki SBP kebangsaan tak pernah & takkan tercapai, aku harap, adik² junior yang dilatih oleh aku boleh.

aku balik dengan senior RON, menaiki mercedes. memang best la bila aku duduk belakang sorang², rasa macam nak baring je tapi hormat la sikit. haha. :D

STAROBA interbatch futsal 2010

junior CHAMPION: viovix FC

player :

abu (GK), skem, ameer, pyan, zul.rosmi, shidi

cape, ijat.gabak

photographer : yazz

*no one will be left behind*

*zany.fury.noty*

kami paling tak tersusun. kami paling lambat makan garam. kami paling MUDA.
as the youngest old boys on the queue, we got discount rm50 for the entry fee. we categorised in the JUNIOR category. the other one is MASTER category. :)

undisclosured match
1. group B - lose 0-6
2. group B - win 5-3
3. quater-final - win 2-1
4. semi-final - win 3-1
5. final - win 3-0

i'm not the goal keeper for the 1st game. i'm giving up as we lose 6 easy goals on the first match without any payback goal. so, i decided to be the goal keeper of the team for the rest of the tournament. *i do have experience as goal keeper already oke. :)
seriously, the toughest match was on the quater-final. i still remember the face of the 'boy' that didn't hear the wisel blow & tried to piss off with the VIOVIX's backline. * if that 'boy' could read it, p/s : you are not the right player to be choose in my area, if you live here. you have the bitchy heart that blow up her larva when you are in the wrong side. you are not going anywhere to win a single tournament as you are far of being a PROFESSIONAL. thank you!
i couldn't forget this tournament because this tournament was my first time to scored a goal as a goal keeper in the FINAL. i did it from far & the ball dashing to the edge of the goal-post. *impresive is it? wallawey. :))

*now, i've future to be a futsal keeper aite? :)

enjoy UNITED

14 may 2010

putrajaya futsal complex

the feeling rise again as this day remarks me as one of them. to be one is no easy task. keep playing as a team + keep up the good performance. even i'm just a sidekick of the team while my brother is a team's heart, i still wanted to be with them. i realized that i have no future in this sport but as i love it since my childhood years, i still wanted to be one. i can analyse how others will do in their struggle to beat us, i can hold each enemy wisely and support the leading ways to find a goal. i'm not a PLAYMAKER but i'm a STRATEGIST. i got brains!!

main focus : cekodok, syawal, botak, syafiq, fitri

sidekick : fairis, abu

we just manage to find a bench in top16 team only. we lose the final match in this tournament with just a stupid coin. :(
-draw in 5min a halftime with zero goal,
-draw in penalty shootout 3-3,
-toss a coin, we had chose tail while when tossed, it was head.
we lose because of the slippery floor of the court after a rainy weather. we can't attack nor shoot, players accused sliding which the reality was they fell to the slippery court & unattendedly, they slide towards the enemy. we control the game but luck is not in our side i guess.

i believe in every cloud had a silver lining. even enjoy UNITED lose the game, we still known as a 'beware they are good' team & syawal's pictures are in KOSMO! 15/5/10. after that frustating day, i'm home at 3am. so i decided to meet yaya at KL Sentral. she was in train (KTM) from perlis. welcome back, northern downpour :D i guess, this is my final year of playing futsal with them as i'm already 18. at least, i enjoyed myself into this game :)

* i got hockey instead aite? :)

coach & award receiver

STAR, ipoh

6 - 9 may 2010

i've been waiting for these days since i was a TOTAL FAILURE during junior years. i've nothing to be proud of; academically or co-curricularly. my hearts belongs to hockey and i'll dash to it. zahhar, my hockey captain and also my bestfriend during school years, conducted this camp. we're rushing to ipoh with our own expense. its not a big deal as both of us were invited to attend the MAJLIS ANUGERAH CEMERLANG STAR 2010 on 8th may. we both got straight A's & its the thing to be remember; most active hockey players that completely adapt a successful environment for hockey & study. :)


STAR's under 16 hockey team 2010 was totally junk for both of us. majority of the team member tend to escape training during our fivers year & its totally makes us wonders, how do they survive during any hockey competitions? almost all of them were being the worst nightmare of me & zahhar; no basics, no experience, no RESPECT of our vitally of training them to be a good player. OMG~


these kids are totally unexpectable to survive until national SBP level. they got third during northern zone competition & as STAR will be the home, they've got wildcard to enter the national level. me & zahhar ourselves didn't manage to enter that level as we have the most perfect team of all past 2 years. maybe time changes & pushing us to let them enjoy their highest achievement until now. they got so much trouble, internally & externally; too much personnel to taught them unwantedly, not enough technics, positioning, player's academic problems, discipline, leadership quality & so on so forth. we couldn't solve it totally but we can help these kids on one term; PLAY AS TEAM WITH INTELLIGENCE. we hope, we had done that perfectly understandable. :)


bookmarks :
setpiece 23's, penalty corner setpiece, zig-zag, dragflicking, reflect, change side, first & second runner technic, shield, pentagon shape, foot hunting

our skin burned, shuppet's legs cramped

we just hope that, you guys can make it a rememberance.

i've got third for SPM leavers based on our SPM result. its nothing much because my main focus was to train my juniors the meaning of hockey player's lifestyle at STAR; stand for our own, ask for advice & skills plus never forget our study. :)

goodluck my young juniors. hope you guys can makes zahhar's & my dream's to show ourselves worth enough at national SBP hockey competition level becomes yours too.

*you guys got talent, why waste it?

be the next tastebuds of STAR's sport oke.

coaching life

u16 sbp hockey team

1 - 3 mei 09

jiwa gila,sg petani

abu coaching??

bullshit la weyh..

act,ak x coaching sgt pon.ak akui ye.masyeh.its all zahhar's matters.ak juz tlg & tangguk.it is simple then.ak bleh tlg sket2 je.bout atur team,tactics & even technics pon zahhar.but ade la bncg sket2 ngan ak.nvm..ak tlg as a good friend + good senior.

abu says : gdluck guys.jgn lpe sewa tetap jln(adam s).reflect byk2.gol brlmbk.beat u-noe-who.dorg igt dorg bgos ke.las year,order ngan fain xde kot.bleh la dorg mng.kalo fain + order ade, sng2 je ktorg mng.shit meyh.sucks mat port!!

THE END

futsal tym.

today - 27/3

dlu kt perlis.now kt tpg.caya la.xabes men ftsl la ak ni. tp xpe,nvm.its my fav la bro.hahah.ak hrp mng la esk.

-aBu-
position : keeper/attacker
target : zero bolos.gol brlmbk

cmne?ade hrpn?ak akn cbe sbaek mgkn.pape hal ak bgtaw nnt.c ya.

______________________________________________________

here the RESULT

top 16.
klh pnlti je.

1st game,,
ktorg bolos 1.slh zahhar.mmg maen pon xbtol.sume glbh.aduhai.but,zahhar tebus blek.die gol 1.mnt2 trakhir,freekick dkt D dorg.zahhar dummy nk shoot n pass ak.n ak gol with bntuan 'fly' aiman.thnx.

2nd game,,
ktorg kontrol game.ak keeper kali ni.n xbolos for first half.2nd half.ak blg kt zahhar.n gol.mmg brgye.ak sbg keeper sound danny n zultek.maen cool je.but danny slh kali ni.bg can enemy shoot.ak dh dive dh n dorg gol.skrg seri 1-1.maen lg.freekick lg kt D dorg.n now,zahhar dummy nk shoot.but pass kt aiman.n gol.ak sound defend.jgn bg lps lgsg.mse nk abs dh.keeper dorg dh tuka taktik.blg gak tros kt D ktorg.ak nmpk bola akn out.n ak block forward die.but danny yg sucks tu,tanduk msok dlm gol.xpnh ak tgk defend bodoh cmtu.n mse abs.pnlti.amon maen keeper.ak xyakin la.
yg amek pnlti:

1. zahhar - gol
2. abu - gol
3. danny - TIDAK GOL

ak pon nk keeper for last shoot.n dorg gol.tmt suda prjuangan ktorg.n danny yg bodoh kne penyepak ngan ak kt luar,jari tgh ak n leteran sorg player yg byk pengalaman ni.pdn mke die. nseb baek zahhar ade.kalo x mmg kne blsh dh td.3 kali slh die.

• 1st gol - bg can enemy shoot
• 2nd gol - own goal yg plg bodoh ak pnh tgk.
• 3rd pnlti - TIDAK GOL(loser)

i-metro futsal - zon utara

my topmost priority
its my 1st lyfe - FUTSAL

ak team ngan skoolmate ak.chloromethane.thnx kt ckg chem star.idea ktorg timbul dri ctu.then ref sound.ni bkn ubat batuk ke?ktorg dh blank.redho je.tp xpe.bleh maen gak.

jumaat,13/3 - ak gerak dri ipoh with my jr.smpi butterworth n then g kangar.ktorg lpk kt umh shawn.mlm tu lps mkn ktorg rest n tdo.myb pnt sgt.

sabtu,14/3 - ktorg g pdg besar.shopping n shipping.ak bli sleeveless n jeans.sywl nk bj chelsea n belt.ibu nk pulut hitam.sumenye ak bli.ngan bajet yg agk kurg.ak riso cmne nk blek.nmpknye kne mng.same goes with wandin n sepilok.hayoo~ktorg odw blek n sggh kt pitch.agk bsr.ade fifa n normal pitch.fuyoo~hope ktorg maen kt fifa pitch.grand sket.

ahd,15/3 - ktorg smpi lmbt.lps dleter oleh amer,ktorg dftr.ak pon trigt bday sywl arini.ak wish die.ktorg akn lwn ngan team viovix.bdk star gak.plan nk seri.tp dorg nk maen kaw2.nk bntai ktorg.ak pon plan d best for team.trget : mng ngan viovix.n ktorg mng.target shoot.mng 1-0 jaringan wandin yg di through oleh ak.nice defender.then klh mati round.kalo klh blek kl la.ktorg lwn smk djh-bintong.team besa je.xde la bgos sgt.tp ktorg klh.gol bdh je.dh klh blek la.ktorg pon g blek while viovix still mng n mng.dorg msok top8.dh konfem g grand final.thniah 4 them.no offence.tket kul 9 mlm.ak pon tdo ngan nyeyak while yg laen bncg for other game.ak on je.hahah.smpi kl dlm kul 5 pg.g umh aiman dlu.ptg bru blek umh.dgn keadaan yg amat PENAT.

that's all for now.ktorg team yg bru.n ade player yg ZERO xprience.x adil tok mrh dorg.ak dlu pon cm2 gak.redha n tgktkn diri.maen as a team not individual."ape yg penting? kerjasama".

busyness

kepenatan keletihan
kesakitan

3 kata dlm 1 rasa

ak mmg busy month ni.hockey,krs n drama.xlpe futsal kt perlis holz ni.aduhai.sume event ni lwn tym bulan 4.agk redha la.dgn xm week lg.juz chayok abu.kntlkn smngat.bwat je cm last year.yeh~
events:-

• futsal - 15 march
• drama - 3-5 april
• krs - 29 april

EXAMexamEXAM
(6-10 april 2009)

agk pnt la.tp ape bleh bwat.ni sume nyawa ak.btw,congrat abu.first blog of da month.sape yg xpuas aty ckp jela.

W.E.M.L
what ever major LOSER
boo the big L

hoki daerah kinta utara.

ana..conda(2x)
STAR!!
its my 2nd life - HOCKEY

ak player right half.no 8.ak pilih no 8 coz ade la.1 bnd yg ak xbleh lpe.the great flezo.thnx again bro.ak akn gne no ni(if i have right to choose la).ktorg grouping ngan sg pari n st michael institution.
here are our result:

• sg pari 3-0 anaconda
• smi 0-1 anaconda

thnx to sepilok for a nice goal against smi.with that goal,now we are in first round.we are also in grouping(again).we are grouped with acs ipoh n anderson.fuyoo.anderson!!klh la anaconda.
here are our result:

• acs ipoh 0-1 anaconda
• anderson 3-1 anaconda

thnx to rahimi for ur goal against acs ipoh.captain die mmg pns ngan kte.pdn mke die kne kad kuning.kn dh kne kuar.agaist anderson,miracle happens.we give a good fight against them.we finally managed to score a goal by alimin.thnx bro.actually,anderson team kebal in dis district.even final dorg with sg pari pon dorg tapau sg pari 5-0.star hebat?for now,cheers

all star(2x)
lalala...

1-fain(keeper)
2-alimin(half)
3-weir(defend)
4-babun jr(forward)
5-order(defend)
6-amerullah hot(defend)
7-acap(forward)
8-gorgeous ABU(half)
9-muazzin(half)
10-sepilok(forward)
11-mizal(forward)
12-shuppet(reserve)
13-nafis(reserve)
14-ijat gubra(reserve)
15-rahimi(forward)
16-ZAHHAR(all position)
17-aiman sanudin(defend)
18-babun(deadly reserve)

p/s - sg pari team,we are better team now.bleh la korg bntai ktorg.muazzin n alimin xde.there are no combination of half which is 2x8=16.dh la maen hit je.cian ijat.injurt plak.

congkak!!

ak trigt tym kecik2 dlu.ske je maen congkak.but now..dh lme xmaen.trase rndu plak zmn dlu2.love my childhood la.sobs2~

warisan melayu indah berseri,
jgn dihina jgn digelak;
wahai abu yg bijak bestari,
blehkah ko maen si congkak?

my answer : congak bleh la kot.HAHA~

pduli la ape ak.ak org melayu beb.game tradisi cmni mne bleh get away.hang tuah pnh ckp " xkn melayu hlg d dunia".igt la sket.skrg org melayu byk dh mix.ak pon ade mix banjar sket.hahah~bak kte coach drama ak.mulut die agk sketkn aty sket la.tp ak redha je.xmkn dlm sgt.btw,die mmg besh.wlcm to my alma mater trcnta.

coach : mke ko ni cm peranakan la.hidung ade sket.
abu : mmg la coach.sy ade mix banjar la.
coach : naseb baek bkn org terengganu.
abu : ???(mke yg agk blur)
coach : kalo x,sy igtkn adk zizan td.
abu : agk kurg asam coach ni ek.(dlm hati je)HAHA~

so,around 11 pm.ak yg tgh borink nk mmpos ni brgolek kt sofa tok dali.apis start pchkn kesunyian mlm.

apis : shida,ko ade ape esk??
shida : ak nk g titiwangsa.karnival hari wp la.byk game kt sne.ftsl pon ade.
abu : almk,ak nk g puchong la.nk tgk umh bru.kalo x,mest ak maen.
apis : ko mmg.g la kt puchong tu.kwn ngan cina lg bgos.
abu : ko diam ar.bkn dwet parent ko pon.
shida : ak msok congkak.
abu + apis : HAHA.ko nk msok congkak?reti maen x?
shida : mest la.kt umh ak ade congkak.
apis : ko g la amek.bosan doh~
shida : jap2.(naimah follow die)
apis : bgos2.abu,jom maen?
abu : ko nk lwn ak?klhla.
apis : try me.
abu : no hal.
shida + naimah : bg ktorg maen la.dh la xreti maen.
abu : apis la.xtaw maen.bajet bgos.dh la maen tpu.
apis : ko yg maen tpu.
abu : biar ak lwn naimah jap.
naimah : ko mest klh pny.
abu : at least lg terer dri apis ni.
apis : ko bragk sket.

ku sangkakn pns hingga ke ptg,
rupenye hujan around noon.

ak klh ngan mke yg puas.at least ak bg cbrn hebat kt naimah.minah ni mmg terer btol.ak rse ak mng td.rpenye klh.hahah~
now,apis n shida plak lwn.

abu : ak blek dlu la.nk tdo la.
apis : rlek la.tgk ak mng dlu.
abu : ko mkn kaki lg bgos.shida,pape result msg ak taw.
(ak xnk taw pon resultnye.MLS~)

p/s : nk tgk congkak?
astro prima.1 feb.11 pm
pesananku : tgk ngan family.jgn sorg2 ek.seram gak weyh
ak bkn pnakot je.juz need support.bluek~